Bullies

Hey Guys

Today’s blog was going to be a fun light hearted one after the last two which are just my opinion on the said issue, but then I saw a post from a friend that was about how he had to delete his YouTube channel due to being trolled which believe it or not is a form of bulling and can cause people as much harm and physical bullying or verbal bullying. I have been on the blunt end of many types of bullying such as Cyber, Physical and Verbal just to name a few. I am not writing this to get some sort of pity party going or to get sympathy because without it I don’t think I would be as confident with myself as I now. I was lucky enough that even though I had been bullied for over six years I had the great strength of my family and my Grandma behind me. I was a fortunate.

I used to get bullied because of the way that I looked, in the bullies’ opinion I had a big forehead and used to get called names like ‘five head’, ‘alien’ and ‘boom head’ (they could have been more creative in my opinion). This first started in year three I went to a private school in Surrey which was from year three up to sixth form whenever I used to cross paths with some of the older boys they used to call me ‘five head’ at the time I didn’t know what was going on so I shrugged it off and thought nothing of it. At the end of year five my parents moved up north to Boston where I went to a Primary school for a year while there I got the odd comment like ‘Alien’ or ‘Five head’ which again I shrugged off. Then I went to secondary school in Boston where  the bullying became worse every day walking around from year seven to eleven I would get ‘forehead’, ‘boom head’ and ‘five head’ shouted at me on a daily biases.

I will admit at the beginning of year nine it made me feel so ugly and so annoyed that I was different from everybody else because I looked slightly different. I remember one day a group of girls had me cornered and they said ‘why don’t you get a fringe it will make you look better and it will stop us doing this’. The next time I went to the hair dressers I got a side fringe put in the day before non-uniform day so the next day I managed to find confidence somewhere deep inside me and I wore I skinny jeans and a comfy top.  The next day I walked into my form room again to the points and giggles this time when I sat down I got asked if I had an eating disorder and because I was caught off guard by the accusation I didn’t reply which they took as a yes which meant that I was no longer just being bullied because of my forehead but because I was skinny.

                I remember one day in year eleven I was sat talking to a friend about being bullied and I realised that I had been called the same names over and over again most of my academic life and I laughed at the fact that they couldn’t think of anything new to say. I remember this day very clearly I was walking down the main corridor and someone turned and said ‘forehead’ that was going in the opposite direction out of nowhere I stepped across the corridor till I was stood in front of them and said ‘I’ve heard that one before not very original’ and walked off his face was a picture.  I used the same tactic all the way up until prom where I was waiting for the comments about my weight to kick off and it did one girl said ‘she must be anorexic’ and I turned round and said ‘I’m not, I’m just more active and not a fat as you’ I know it was kind of a low blow but after the abuse she had given me over the years it was just a little ripple on the pond.

Now back to the present day I am happy with the way that I look and I still get the odd comment and still turn round and say ‘can you honestly not think of one I haven’t heard before’ which I know is not the proper way to deal with the situation but what is, after all the years I have endured being bullied I think I’m allowed to stick up for myself now.  I really don’t care if this opens up a can of worms to trolls I say bring it on because I am stronger than any type of abuse you can throw at me because I have been dealing with it my whole life and now it just makes me laugh

To all you bullies out there you think that your comments make us feel so useless and unwanted but sooner or later the person you bullied will surprise you and will stop caring about what you say and may end up finding the funny side like I did. Like I said before, this post wasn’t about getting attention or me wallowing in self-pity I wanted share my story about being bullied and to show that not all people who get bullied don’t have choice and that they have to deal with all their life because that’s not fair. Imagine that you have a child and that its them being bullied you will see the whole situation from another point of view, the view of your victims. 

Hey Guys

Well for the next couple of weeks or so I guess I am going to be trying to find a format that works for me and play around with different ideas. currently I would like to blog everyday but I think that will only work for a couple of days a week at most then I will start blogging crap which is not what I want to do if people are going to look at my blog I should have the decency to post something worth reading. I was thinking of maybe once a week trying a vlog which may be fun or it may turn out rubbish, so I will have to play around with that.  I was also thinking about doing book reviews but I am worried I may ruin the book and people won’t want to read it so my though with that is I will try it and ask you guys what you think of it (I will probably do a book that most people have read like Harry Potter or the Hungry Caterpillar).  

Let me know what you think of my possible ideas for my blog 

Manners

So picture this guy’s your walking through town you enter a shop and as you open the door to enter you see an elderly person coming for the opposite direction so you hold the door open for them you don’t get a simple thank you or even an acknowledgment by the elderly person. Now imagine if it was the opposite way round that an elderly person held the door open for you and you didn’t say thank you or acknowledge them they would go into a huge speech about how the youth of today has no respect for the elderly and we just think they are a “nuisance on society”.  

The other day I was in my local supermarket and I had stopped to look at the magazines deep in thought I didn’t realise that a mobility scooter was coming till it had run in to the side of leg I turned round immediately and said I was sorry and apologised then the said person in the scooter went on to rant at me how I have no respect for my elders and that I was a rude insolent little child and new nothing of the hardship that they had faced growing up. I am old enough to know sorry does bring back the dead (Dad quote there) but I wouldn’t have minded if I had accidently walked into the scooter not the fact that it had run into me when I was clearly not moving I had been stood there for at least five minutes. It’s the same when I go into town the amount of times I have seen children almost being hit by mobility scooters are a little worrying just because you’re in a machine thing that can go up to fifteen miles an hour doesn’t mean you have right of way they also come equipped with a horn type thing it’s there for a reason.  

I also find it worrying that some elderly people feel they have the right to (struggling for a polite enough word) be rude and a little arrogant the odd side comments that you over hear walking past such as ‘she fat’, ‘they must have been dragged up not brought up’ and ‘when I was there age I was working not messing around’ I understand that they have a right to comment I have no right to take away anyone’s free speech but some comments are just too harsh and can really upset people even if there not directed at them. If we was to do the same thing we would be called rude arrogant so and so and told that we have no respect or understand the sacrifices they made so we could live the way we do now in this country. 

It also annoys me how all the elderly seem to stereotype all the younger generation because of the people who take it upon themselves to “speak” for our generation like some people thought they would do with the London riots. I was walking through town in my Pineapple dance hoodie as it was chilly and because it had started to rain I put my hood up the amount of looks I got because I was walking through town with my hood up was ridiculous some elderly people even went as far as gave me a wide birth.  

I do respect the elderly and the point of this post is not to slag them off it is far from that I just thought I would bring to light some observations I had made over the past couple of years and I do understand that the world has changed but I think that more needs to be done to help break down the barriers between the elderly and the young and the references I have made in this maybe just  one off incident or more than a one off in some occasions but these are my personal experiences.  

When i was younger

I do not think that I am the only person to notice this is the current society we live in that so much has changed since I was younger.

 I mean when I was younger I was excited to get a kinder egg and wonder what toy would be inside and I would be happy with that and I remember when a tamagotchi was the best thing in the world apart from when it went off at 3 in the morning to be fed, other than that it was amazing. All i have to do is scroll down my face book to see how much has changed like the amount of selfies or whatever the correct term is of people younger than 18 with iPad's, iPhone's or other devices reflected in the mirror along with the infamous duck face or worse the underwear shot. Nobody wants to see it!. Then is seems like time has gone full circle I mean in the 19^th century many girls would be married and have children by the age of twenty or they would be considered old or ugly for not being courted but time passed and girls started getting an education and focused on careers and built a stable home before having children now back the present day girls are back to having babies before twenty I looked at my year eight class photo and out of the 10 girls over half have now got a baby or one on the way. I do not have a problem with young mothers it is just an observation I have made. I have also noticed the change in young girl’s clothing last time I went into a fashion retailer and I saw a really nice dress that was reasonable length then realised it was a 10-11 year old dress that had been put back in the wrong place. I then took the opportunity to look at the girls section and saw that half the stuff there I wouldn’t wear because it would be to short or a little bit to preppy for me. My mother and I then went to another shop and I noticed the same thing again but this shop had the same white chiffon playsuits in sizes 5-6 years up to 16 years the thing with these playsuits was that the top buttons were pretty low down the chest also the playsuit was a little bit see through I know this because I tried on the 16 years one.

Please tell me I am not the only one who has noticed these changes. 

First post

Hello to whoever sees this 

This blog is going to be mainly a place to get my thoughts down I hope it will be a happy well balanced place not all sad and depressing thoughts. Well here’s a little about me I am 20 years old I am average looking, average height and have all round average personality well that’s a bit of lie being average is boring it means your like everybody else and a world where we are all the same would be BORING the worlds needs individuality (look at me sounding all Miss World like).